This was either going to be this length, or a novel. I could have said so much, but I want people to read it all. Hope I conveyed this well enough:
Two years ago, I lost my full ride scholarship to college.
A year ago, I was only worried about getting high (not hating you potheads, but thats ALL I cared ab).
5 months ago, I burned a bridge with my best friend.
A month ago, If Not Now, When? came out and ended the 20-or-so month downhill tumble my life was taking.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, what? I am beyond more sincere about everything I just typed. I'm a huge Incubus fan. Like most of you, I listen to about 20 of their songs a day, including virtually any second I'm in the car. I know all the lyrics to every track. I can recite the band's history. The whole nine yards. So when I found out that Incubus' two-year break was done with, I decided to end mine. It wasn't like: "oh Incubus is back, guess I'll get my shit together." It started when I first heard the album title: "If Now Now, When?" If that alone doesn't make you pumped I'm sorry. After thinking on this title for a few days I realized something: If I ask myself that question every day, it motivates me, and it keeps me goal oriented. That's a huge part of getting out of a slump, keeping yourself busy with things that are both pleasurable and productive. Of course you're not going to love every second of work, but there's fulfillment there. The next part of how the album helped me was the actual music: what made it an album, duh. This might have been one of the more "spacious" albums for the band, but the music is so true it hurts. You can feel the sincerity in Brandon's lyrics. Something awesome is even though he's in his 30's, it's still soothing to listen to this as a 21 year old in the coming-of-age era in my life. "I know I'm not alone. Just adolescents, you and I." Such a beautiful piece of poetry, this album. After listening, I decided to take the message I found in it and put it to use. That message was: No matter who you are, what you're involved in, how much you've been wronged, or where you're coming from: you can always pack up your emotional baggage and bad situations and start on the life you deserve to live.
And now here I am. I start school today and I have won my battle with depression. While thinking about how appreciative I am to get another shot at pursuing my education (and being happy again), I decided to write this post to thank Incubus. Thanks so much for just doing what you do, because what you've done has changed my life.
PS: There's a slight chance I'm going to stroke out when I see the band for the first time live 9/23 in Huntsville. I also wanna thank Ren and the Incubus crew for doing these live streams. They've been so awesome. Red Rocks was so insane, I still watch the DVD every couple weeks lol.